GOD AND I

Feeling cold...am dumbstruck.....
a stronf feeling of numbness engulfing me...making me realise i am special....everything comes to a standstill at points like these when i look back at what happened...here i am...trying to figure out am i really that important..
today i felt a connection with god...i wudnt say its the first time but ya i really badly felt it ...
i individualy am particular about spirtualism...i am someone who keeps to himself what he feels..still today i want to reach out and tell people that yes there is a power unseen but true...has many forms but is equal to all...its how u relate to it...
previous few days were really tough ...whether its emotional front...workload...or just plain stress....i wanted to run away..n hide in a corner full of darkness...wanted to rest...
relationships whether family frnz or love were all futile...i was worried...i wanted to rest..
i somewhere belived that nobody wants me...n am just satisfying some individual egos and wants(aprt from some people who really love me...)
so yes that was me the guy who lost it completely!

however things changed in a split second...i hoped for one single thing from god and asked him to grant me that and i would be at peace...and here i am my wish fulfilled...
i feel am wanted ...

god himself wants me to fight my life out...
today i feel lucky that he keeps on testing mee...hoping to transform me for the better...placing me in toughest of the situations so that i accomplish my goals..my dreams the hard way...as they say hard way is the best way...
today for the first time im glad i am not a son of a ambani or a tata...
today im glad i took birth in a upper middle class family..which fulfilled my expectations and wishes in the right proportions...
today im glad i have a basic family..rather than a extraodinary closed knit family..who share everything...im glad our family is a bit distant which enhances the avenues to face challenges alone!
today im glad i was fooled around and manupulated by people..
today im glad i was heartbroken and deprived of love
today im glad im not a wonderkid or a top scorer but a moderate scorer and percent achiever.
today im glad i wasnt a extraodinary tennis player and just a normal guy next door.
today im glad that am far better than people who are homeless and helpless.
today im glad im MEE...
thanks for everything god..

thanks for making me------------- ME! TANMAY MITTAL

today i respect god the most for today i realised he loves testing the one he adores so as to make him/her better
today i realise i was so wrong in blaming god for all the things which i thought i never got...

p.s i dont say god has a structure or can be touched...but the idols the temple the mosque the gurudwara and the churches are nothing but a staircase that makes us go closer to him!!He is all around...u just have to feel him...


today i know he tested me and would keep testing me till i die...in order to make my life worthwhile...I am living my life on this outfront
after all its the survival of the fittest they say..n i personally want to god to welcome me in heaven saying i passed all his tests...n he is happy how i spent my life.......

thank you all for your time..in case u have any comments after reading it..please be free..negatives or positives both are highly welcomed...moreover if u can express ur own personal views i would be grateful
take care people
peace
Tanmay :)